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I have been choosing harder ways all my life…

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    • 'It's me!' – Self-publishing 1988
      • – About Me
      • 1. Poems Written in Japan 1963-1965
      • 2. Poems Written as a Fresh off the Boat 1966-1970
      • 3. Poems presented to Dr. Schneider 1970-1979
      • 4. Poems Written during a Transitional Stage and after my "Schneider" Stage 1975-1987
      • 5. TANKA (Poems in 31 Japanese syllables) 1965-1987
      • 6. Words for Songs 1966-1968

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My value

To me, man is not “Bread & Butter”

Man is not “Bread and Butter”
I can live without it.
If I ever care for a man,
He has to be something to enrich my life
like, say, a palatable appetizer or desert

I have everything.
Mental assets, monetary assets, and great feeling level
If I ever am interested in a man,
he has to be someone to enhance my energy levels
like, say, great music or enchanting flagrance

Man is not “Necessito”
I can live without it.
I don’t need to impress others by a superficial social life
I am not afraid of solitude nor loneliness
What I like is excitement in my life
          9/27/2014

Take me as I am

Faust sold his soul to Satan to regain his youth.
But I don’t.
Take me as I am, or leave me alone.
I am not apologetic about my age.
My face is no longer beaming with steamy youth.
Yet expression on my face reveal what I am, culminations of my life,
of which I am so proud.
Take me as I am, or leave me alone. 
          10/22/2006

LAD

Primed by your being,
My libido started to flow again

I thought I graduated from Romantic love a long time ago
I had commenced to philanthropic love steadfastly over the years
How many youths have I extending my generosity to
How graciously I have been enjoying being “mama” to them
Some tried to play overture, but just to flatter my ego
Nothing ever torched my Eros

Why now?
But I feel it.
What I feel is what I am.
I must not negate the real me.

Shall I not lure you to the rippling surface of Eros
Shall we not together dive into the depth
and would be washed upon the shore of Nirvana

Having you thrust into me
Shall I not weave a rainbow brocade
spreading over the Libido flow
       to which you would try to reach
in vain, flaming with jealousy


DISCRETION
Shall I not transform myself into a prayer
Happiness suitable to you as young as could be my son
While
cherishing most dearly the Energy
      elicited by your being
          4/19/2003   

Hero in this era

Charles M. Schulz died in his sleep at 77
just after he finished his last newspaper cartoon 
just 3 months after he had decided to quit drawing.
For half a century, he created the world of “peanuts”
in which he lived and loved and enjoyed. 
For half a century, millions of people all over the world
enjoyed and were nurtured by the warm humor of his comics  
He ceased to exist.
But, his creations, Charlie Brown and Snoopy and all 
will nourish people’s hearts forever.

If one defines a hero in this era, 
‘Person who develops his potential for fully, enjoy his activities, 
which are consistent with others’ happiness, wellbeing.’
Then, Charles M. Schulz is a hero of this era.
          2/15/2000
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