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      • 1. Poems Written in Japan 1963-1965
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American Life

September 11, 2001

      The Skyline of Manhattan
      The Symbol of Civilization
      Each building stands beautiful in its way
      Yet harmonizes with one another in unity
 
      Must Not let it be disturbed again
      Must Make any effort to prosper this Civilization
      Must pay any cost to protect this Country
 
      America belongs to those who love America.
      America belongs to those who devote themselves to America.
 
               **********************
 
      Thus the War was against Iraq started
      to eliminate potential danger to the USA and other Civilization
based upon plausible justification
 
To this date, we cannot find mass destructive weapons,
The only evidence to justify the War was
Just because the outcome of the War is different from the expectation,
We must not accuse our Government.
For at the time of starting the War, no one was sure of anything
Yet, it was so urgent to eliminate the potential danger
 
      We went along with our Government
No time for finger-pointing
We must now share the outcome of the War solemnly
Let’s concentrate on what has to be done 
     to stabilize peace in Iraq and relevant countries
 
That will lead to a prosperous Manhattan Skyline
The Symbol of Civilization
          3/4/2004

Am I a Fool?

“Contract? No. You trust me. If you don’t like my job, don’t pay.” The Words of the painter, I took as the conscience of blue color.
I bet for a precious taste of Gentleman Agreement.
Just to find, he wanted to use up unpopular paint on my building.
 
“Credit? No. Not even total move-in-cost.”
Looking in his clear eyes, I accept the black youth as my tenant,
taking his word for it. Sometimes, I begged him, “Don’t betray my trust.” Overall, he certainly gave me a toast to human trust.
 
“Pay in advance for special order? No. You pay when the series start coming.” Japanese Bookstore in Japanese Community, People trust own people.
I felt tasting a drip of oasis in the desert continent.
Just to find out, they wanted to charge me a new higher rate.
 
“Escrow? No. That’s for American who don’t trust people.” I bought a property from my client WITHOUT escrow,
toasting for triumph over the American system based on DISTRUST.
Just to invite, “WITHOUT escrow? You must have done something fishy.”
 
Alas, Am I a fool? I refuse to learn. Whenever I feel “hope,”
I will take a chance, betting for a taste of human trust, the drip of oasis. Without it, I can’t survive in this desert continent.
          8/16/2000

Generations

The 1960s, Virgin and Marriage were glorified
Men married virgin 
   paying the price for taking virgin
Marriage was a license to be accepted by society
   to have guilt-free sex.
Divorce was bad, better to put up with an unhappy marriage.

The 1970s, Premarital Sex? No good, but do it anyway
live together? Oh, no. But do it quietly
Divorce? What a shame, but it cannot be helped

The 1980s, You want to marry? You have not even lived together.
Be sensible. Live together to test love before marriage.
Divorce? Much better to start new than putting up with misery

The 1990s, marriage? No, not ready. I don’t want to commit myself.
We don’t need to.
Divorce? One of those things can happen

The 2000s, Nothing is right, Nothing is wrong.
marriage OK, no marriage OK
divorce OK, no divorce OK
If one feels good about own marriage, it is good for oneself
If one feels good about own divorce, it is good for oneself.
To survive this generation,
 one must develop a keen sense of decision making
to find the best in oneself.
          2/22/2000

We’ll inherit the greatest legacy you have accomplished - dedicated to Nisei Brothers

When we put ourselves in the 1940s,
discrimination was legal and was taken for granted,
on top of which America had declared war against Japan
All Japanese Americans were suspected as "enemy aliens." 
would we have done the same thing in their position, "not to resist"
For the very survival of all Japanese Americans.

JACL, you did well to ensure the well-being of all Japanese Americans,
to reduce their suspicion of "enemy aliens."
even though you may not have been able to be fair to all of our people.
In such an emergency, unity was so essential; some individuals may have had to suffer unfairly
for the sake of the well-being of the majority.

Nisei veterans,
Being called "non-alien," you devoted yourselves to your country 
which refused to acknowledge you as a citizen.  
You had practiced the word of Mr. Kennedy long before him
 in the most dedicated form.
"Ask not what your country can do for you. 
Ask what you can do for your country." 

Nisei veterans,
Your devotion was more than the practice of Jesus's word,
 "Greater love has no man than this,
 that a man lay down his life for his friends."
 in this country which was founded on Christian ethics,
 yet failed to practice the most basic ethics, all people are equal.

Nisei veterans,
being dissonant with your parents who pledged loyalty to
 Japan,
transcending personal feelings, you devoted yourselves to your own country,
America.
That was the very practice of Japanese Virtue
though ironically, you had to call Japan an "enemy,"
though you did not speak Japanese
Nisei veterans,
you have accomplished the highest conduct a human can achieve
maintaining high self-esteem 
all through hardship and adversity.
If you could do all that, why can't we do the same 
in this era and the era to come.

In this contemporary era, 
discrimination is illegal, not supposed to be,
to fight against yet-existing injustice and unfairness is prevailing value.
From this perspective, we cannot ignore the Nisei brothers who refused to be drafted, 
protesting for unconstitutional incarceration.
Two Nisei brothers sued the Giant Government to defend your right as a 
Citizen

It was a very pathetic attempt, with no hope of winning.
Without any support, even from own group, 
Yet, you bravely pursue the principle.
Knowing it would never be granted,
Knowing it would risk the well-being of yourselves and others of your own group.
But yet, you could not help but stick to the principle.

Being rejected and resented by the whole world,
it must have been a bitter and lonely journey.  
We extend great sympathy to your soul.
If you could have pursued your principles amidst that hardship,
we should be able to do so in this era and the era to come.

Nisei Veterans, brothers,
we vow to inherit
the greatest legacy you have accomplished in
that hardest era.
          2/18/1995

America, AMERICA

“MOM, WHAT IS AMERICA?”
“My love, it’s your country, a big country.”
“BIG, YOU MEAN, AS GIGANTIC AS THE OCEAN?”
“Right.  Indeed, America is like an ocean.”
“THEN, MOM, AMERICANS ARE FISHES!”
“What an interesting idea you have.
 Indeed, there are many kinds of Americans just as many as there are kinds of fishes in the ocean.
     Fishes with white scales,
     fishes with black scales,
     fishes with yellow scales.
     Each kind lives with its own group.”
“BUT, MOM, IF A FISH WITH WHITE SCALES MARRIED A FISH WITH BLACK SCALES, 
 A BABY WITH BLACK AND WHITE SCALES WOULD BE BORN, WHAT WOULD HAPPEN!”
“Well, it may belong to either group, or both or neither. 
 But it may FEEL uncomfortable to really belong to any one group.”
“THEN IF A BUNCH OF FISHES WITH MIXED SCALES WERE BORN, 
THEY COULD MAKE THEIR OWN GROUP IN WHICH THEY FEEL COMFORTABLE.”
“My son, you are sweet.”

“MOM, REMEMBER WHEN WE WENT TO THE BEACH?’
THE COLD WATER AND WARM WATER WERE NEXT TO EACH OTHER.  
WE COULD NOT SEE IT, BUT WE COULD FEEL IT ON OUR SKIN.”
“Yes, my love.  And you tried to mix the waters with your little feet,
 like you stir the water in a bathtub.”
“AND, RIGHT AFTER THAT,
 AGAIN THE COLD WATER AND WARM WATER WERE NEXT TO EACH OTHER, 
AND YOU SAID, ‘Even the water, the most flexible thing, takes a long time to mix.’ “

“And my son, you said, ‘MOM, THE COLD WATER SHOULD GET WARM ITSELF.’ “
“MOM, THERE ARE CURRENTS IN THE OCEAN NAMED AMERICA.”
“That’s right.  Where a group of fishes lives, a current starts. 
 Yet, some fishes swim away to the another current.”
“AND THOSE FISHES CAN MAKE FRIENDS AND BE HAPPY IN ANOTHER CURRENT?”
“Well, yes, some can.  But, some can’t.  Some may miss friends of the same scales
 and may return to the old place.”
“WHY DO THEY MISS FRIENDS WITH SIMILAR SCALES?”
“My son, I don’t know well.
 They may feel comfortable in the commonness of having the same scales.”
“MOM, I’VE GOT A GOOD IDEA.  WHY DON’T WE MAKE ARTIFICIAL SCALES TO PUT ON,
 SO WE CAN BE THE SAME EVEN THOUGH OUR NATURAL SCALES ARE DIFFERENT.”
“That’s what people have been doing.  No matter how long the artificial scales cover up the real ones, 
the real ones reveal themselves eventually.”
                                                                  
“MOTHER, I’VE GOT A GOOD IDEA.
 FISHES MAY HAVE TO DEPEND ON SCALES TO FIND COMMONNESS.
 BUT, WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS. WE DON’T HAVE TO DEPEND ON PHYSICAL COMMONNESS.  WE CAN DEPEND ON COMMONNESS IN HUMANITY, SOMETHING IN OURSELVES:  
 TRUTH, VIRTUE, AND LOVE.”
“What wisdom you have, my son. Whatever scales you were born with, my love, swim boldly across the ocean of America.  
Remember, America is your country.”  

1978

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